it's time to face the truth...

Sunday, August 07, 2005 8:42 PM

Shag.

just got home.

sudden headache before i got home,
now i totally feel nothing.
strange.
mayb its because i accidentally stepped on the offerings.

met my w grp at 10am
wheellock starbucks.
sisil was late.
we went fareast for lunch.
had chicken rice.
went shopping instead!
its crazy.
we did nuts for project.

went back to starbucks to meet the 65s,
sisil, sher, mer, john, chengwei, gy, yvette, weeloon, ianrik n kevin turn up.
totally nonsense.
me n gy shifted to bk to do physics.
we did tut1, qns 1a to g.
and the others came in and suggested to go pool.
i've been waiting for that moment!
went fareast plaza to play pool.
after pool they decided to go bk to makan.
they gave me rubbish again.
i was walking with gy,
mer cam us.
i walking with mer,
weeloon cam us.
wao lau,
it seems like i'm have affair with everybody.
RUBBISH.

after had my dinner at bk i went back to my grandma hse.
felt headache n nauseous.
went home.
now feeling better,
going to take a nap..

//runs

Saturday, August 06, 2005 8:10 PM

sleepy sleepy sleepy me

"i'm determined to complete all my homewerks by today"
ah,
i'm bullshitting.
after my lunch i just went to sleep.
i slept for 5 hrs can.
just woke up.
indeed i'm a sleepyhead.
-shake head-
and i'm such a fucktard to pangseh joycee.
-slap myself-
-knee down-
sorry lei joyce.
i beg for forgiveness,
too tired le.
nw blur blur de.

no no,
i MUST TRY to complete as much homewerk today,
before the snowball gets bigger.

//runs

i realised there's so many beautiful pple around.

1:11 PM

slacking

slacking for an hour alr.
had tuition in the morning.
i'm determined to complete all the homewerksby today.
tml gonna meet up wif my pw grp and some classmates for group study,
hopefully no craps.

//later

Friday, August 05, 2005 11:13 PM

have a break,

just got home from safra.

actually i'm starting to get irritated by the teasing alr.
even mr ng join in.
TSK.
damn crap lo,
it just happens that im sleepy because rachel came last night,
and mr ng asked if me and jh went for online dating.
totally WTF.
i sent sms with vulgar to joyce lor.

after school we went to cwp.
s65 - mermer, ianrik, weilong, sher, sisil, peishi, gy, weeloon, terence, kevin, john, chengwei.
and a fellow schoolmate from s45. i forgot his name.
initially wanted to play pool,
peishi say she headache, so she decided to rest in library.
met up at level7.
den chengwei say hungry,
we went to eat mac AGAIN.
den i say 2 missed calls.
its was AH NEH!!!
den i ask him get me a tix for ianrik in case we got seperated.
went up to level 7 again,
couldnt find ah neh.
he's bz.
got my tix.
8 of us went into the cinema.
CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY.
CUTE!
i gave 4.5 stars.
must watch!

got a call from joycee.
walk ard cwp for while and headed back to np.
met up with gaygay-gary and joyce.
renick came along too.
decided to play pool after their dinner.
called sherwin,
he has curfew,
called yuhchu
he came along.
stole a puff of cig from him.
satisfied.
after 2 months of controlling the crave.
i couldnt take it anymore.
wahaha.
i played 2 rounds.
took cab home with ychu at ard 11.

maths tuition tml.
not prepared at all.
nah,
i;m too tired to do anything now.
share dig out my books tml then ;/

nights world.
//runs

1:42 AM

late night

woo.
u wouldnt believe who i just met.
xiao weixiang.
he came up with rachel.
rachel came to find due to having some problems with her bf
or should i say ex bf?
den she told mi weixiang is coming up with her.
i thot is her ex.
den i realise is xiao weixiang.
at first not very welcome him de lo,
cos last tyme he really very beng n i hate him alot.
but after chatting awhile,
i see the change in him.
mayb its because he has converted to christian bah,
he's totally a new weixiang.
nice nice.
then we talk about the past and everything,
mentioned about kaiyan,
i told him i really hated them cos i got a feeling that they always cheated on kaiyan,
ahaha.
he said he never.
he's really really very nice now.
totally different.
i dont see the bengness in him anymore.
goodie.
mayb its the power of god[jesus] that help him.
but,
still, i dont believe in god.
pple who know him,
you will be really surprised to see him man.
that's all.
its alr going to 2am,
i;m still here.
shag.
sch tml.
and i;m watching chocolate factory wif s65!!

//runs

Thursday, August 04, 2005 8:30 PM

bleah

teasing still goes on.
it seems that my classmates cant get enough of it.
especially the guys.
hahas.
dun care lar,
there's nothing,
so i hack.
just play along lor.
but my case not worst den sher's.
tease until everybody know whose her real crush liao.
at least i dun have crush on jh.
so just be it,
let them tease lor.
buaha.
anyway my no.1 eye candy is mr caterpillar.
;p
he is just so pretty!
i also call my classmates names,
mervyn - merlion
ianrick - lil boy with leg hair
guangyang - mr hello kitty
very mean of me.
i shall stop all the nonsense
//runs

Wednesday, August 03, 2005 11:15 PM

mend my heart, mend my soul

i tink i have grew fatter after the camp
EEK!
i dun want!
no no no.
i must eat lesser!!
and i mean LESSER!

woke up two hours ago.
sitting down here for 2 hrs alr.
listening to songs.
the same 3 songs.
just wondering why i'm still sad.
the feeling is like,
just like a year ago.
has the broken heart mend?
didnt i glued it back?
what is bothering it?
i'm quite sure that i dont have feeling for him alr.
then who or what is bothering me.
how i wish i know.
i just cant help feeling down at tymes.
some nights i just want to hide into my blanket and let out a big cry,
just like tonight.
i have never want to have any crush anymore.
nono.
i cant.
cause its useless.
all is rubbish only.

//runs

3:39 PM

I MISS MY BED!

after 3 days and 2 nights of torture,
i'm finally HOME!

ij organised an outdoor adventure camp.
its more like a discipline camp.
-tsk-

day1
reach there
unload our things
and the camp starts.
did rock climbing, the walls, flying fox, games that requires group werk.
my old injury hit me at the sixth game.
stop n did nth from den.
field cooking sucks,
we girls reali dunno how to cook.
wahaha.
dinner sucks too.
our class was suppose to serve the other classes first,
and in the end there was no more food.
we just had a lil of it which is so yucky too.
lights out.
stupid bernice from 51?
shit her man,
we haben make our bed n she freaking switch off the light,
so afraid that miss lee will come in to scold.
-TSKTSKTSK-
must thanks the other girls who helped us with the bed.

day2
wao lau,
early in the morning do PT.
luckily my leg injure,
i cant do anything.
when they go for the run i just sit there lor.
wait n wait n breakfast tyme!
decided to have bread instead.
activities tyme!
i slack most of the tyme due to my leg injury,
i can only limp ard.
stupid.
did nth practically.
there's alot of teasing lar.
food for the day was okie.
after lunch we nid to practice camp fire performance
i was so relactant lor.
its like since i cant come out wif any idea,
i might as well sit down there wait
mr ng got so angry wif our class
and gave us a scolding n wake us up.
after dinner just anyhow help out lor
camp fire.
enjoyed it.
our guys did a great job lar!
so cute n funny!
alot of shouting.
RASALAS rox.
and tommychen, stop calling us RA SA LAST can.
its RASALAS.
after the camp fire,
mr ng gave us debrief.
actualli ic ant wait to go n bath lor,
cos i'm worried tat bernice will switch off the light again.
but to my surprise even after we bathed she's still nowhere to b seen.
was reali tired.
lie on the bed,
fell asleep real soon.

day3 [today]
early in the morning dig us out from bed again.
PT again.
so pple was late n all got punishment.
doing so many workout tat i cant do.
basically i didt really move much.
did Big Sweep.
our class kena wash toilet with S42.
did nothing again.

back to school.
went cwp for mac.
there's me. sisil, sher, peishi, weilong, kevin, ianrik, weeloon, mervin, chengwei, john, junhao and irritating kenneth?
fianlly good food.
waolau.
teasing goes on again.
i nearly vomitted my blood.
thanks to mr weeloon.
i so want to kill him!
make me so paisae only.
dont say rubbish ma,
there's really nothing lor.
i still want to be friend with junhao de lei.
dun make things so paisae ma!
so,on my home,
i just keep cursing in my heart.
curse at weeloon.
hoping that his bag falls on the floor and crushes all his cigg so he cant smoke!!!
wahahha!
evil evil.
looking at his cigg make me so miss the taste of it lar.
dying from the crave.
after mac we took photos and headed different way.

now sending sisil her notes cos i forgot to return her,
and my computer is damn lagg.
i need to sleep for awhile and start revising for my phy test tml.
and
YES! i shall call and disturb angie!
her turn to be in the camp.

KAO EH,
miss lim actually called ytd to ask for my essay.
wad the hell.
shitty banana.

argh.
boring.
//runs

Sunday, July 31, 2005 8:15 PM

i dont wanna grow up anymore.

this few days i was at my god-grandma's funeral.
today is the lasat day,
she's gone,
forever.
but strangely,
i've become so strong or m i numbed?
i didnt drop a tear.
not even once.

just got to know my granddad's lung cancer has worsen or sth.

seriously i dont wanna grow up anymore.

i so miss my sec sch days.
i suddenly thought of kahwah, ychu, sherwin and even chengyee.
hais.
so many lar.
how i wish i can b like last tyme lor.
sleep in class,
slack all days,
have fun with the ppl,
luff like crazy at kahwah's stupid action,
get angry with ms foo,
the noise of 4a3,
disturbed by da jie,
sharing gossips wif kaya, gweny, xl n yp,
though all is nonsense.
but i just miss having fun with them.
:(

i'm going off to camp tml.
be back on wednesday.
so many undone homewerks,
HOW?!

//runs

Friday, July 29, 2005 12:19 AM

stop telling me.

i noe lar.
i shouldnt have chosen jc.
its my FAULT okie.
i;m stupid.
i dun have brain.
i cant cope with stress.

i;m fucking STUPID.
happie enuff?