it's time to face the truth...

Tuesday, August 31, 2004 6:20 PM

opss concert ended veri late.
reaached ma primary sch late.
the sch ish closed, almost every one ish gone.
still manage to meet up wif some old frens.
saw khatijah. was so happi. :)
she's so different now, mature and pretty :)
went to bk to find da others who have left.
most of dem are ex prefects, so i noe them [ i;m prefect too ;/]
rmb most of dem, but most of dem cant rmb mi.
dere ish tish jeremy, kao eh, he change alot.
and i mean ALOT.f
rom a fat chubby cute boy boy to a slimer[still a lil chubby] guy.
his face ish totalli diff.
still as ~~act-cute~~ cute as ever.
was quite happi lar.
saw winnie, wenyi[evelyn], zoe, simin, yifen.
none of da guy i reali noe lar, except fer jeremy.
hmmm.went 761 wif dem as they wanna play bball.
went hm to sleep after tat.
slack alil.
yea.
nth to blog anymore.
buaix
//runs

hmmm.

Sunday, August 29, 2004 8:03 PM

*sighs

went study in da afternoon wif chel, xueling and their fren, ben or whoever he is.
didnt manage to get anyhting into ma mind.
was walking home alone.
thots abt lotsa things.
and i felt so down.
I HATE BEING MYSELF.
I HATE BEING WEISHAN.
Y M I ME?
y m i even brought to tis fucking world?
cant i juz be a normal girl or wad.
i'm not hiding myself,
but i'm not revealing myself too.
i'm so confused.
i dunnoe.
dunnoe.
tish ish ma blog.
i blog wadever i want.
dun ask mi a thing.
i dun wanna say anything.
dun feel offended.
im juz angry wif myself.
:(
//runs

where are u when i needed u most?

Friday, August 27, 2004 9:13 PM

*survey

1) Last relationship ?
nv started

2) Last word "I love you" ?
haha. to ngiex. days ago.

3) Last person you met ?
ngiex, kaya, xl, gary and yp.

4) Last Cigarette ?
days ago.

5) Last person who hurt you?
wenyi. but tat was months ago. and i dun feel hurt anymore

6) Last cried ?
25aug

7) Last bath ?
today, at 7 pm.

8) Last drink ?
i cant really rmb.

9) Last person talk to you on the phone ?
yuan ping.

10) Last song u have listen ?
How does it feel - avril lavigne

11) Last house you went to ?
ma grandma

12) Last thing you eaten ?
takopachi

13) Last game you play ?
-

14) Last heartbroken ?
Pass.

15) Last person chat with you msn ?
michelle [ fren's fren]

16) Last birthday ?
???

17) Last person you were thinking ?
I'm not slpin yet. So its not last.

18) Last thing you bought ?
strawberry milk

19) Last clothes you wore?
tshirt

20) Last hug ?
cant rmb.

21) Last person you visit to the hospital ?
Tt was really a long long longgggg time ago.

22) Last thing you have done ?
blogging

23) Last book you have read?
a book by danielle steel.

24) Last place you been to ?
J8

25) Last person you msg ?
yuan ping. [ all time favourite lao gong, buds, goodie partner]
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and ya.
i tink i better clarify again.
i dun like wenyi anymore.
he ish now attached,
i dun see da point of pondering over it,
i dun see da point of waiting,
i dun see da point of liking him,
when i knew how much he love his gf,
and tat dere ish zero possibility between us.
dun guess anymore.
if i ever blog on someone i like or wad,
its never gonna be him again.

why why why why why. why da heck ________

6:46 PM

*yawnx

went fer movie wif ngiex, xl, gary,yp and kaya.
watched FACE.
damn scary.
can reali scream.
sigh.
sian lar.
life ish so shack.
i;m not feeling happi lar.
:(

wad can i do to let ya noe?

Thursday, August 26, 2004 6:02 PM

*juz another normal sch day..

so many remedials.
so shack.
but luckily, ramesh ish gone.
ah bo my thursday will be super shack.

bio prac today.
yingsheng broke 5 mirrors in total.
1 mirror = 7 years of unlucky-ness
5 mirrors = 35 years!
how unlucky.

class chalet on 1st dec.
cant wait to go.
going clubbing fer da first tyme :)
although quite mountain tortoise lar.

prom nite;
tink i'm not going,
wad a place,
YWCA.
nv even heard of it before lor.
cant they juz organise at a simple hotel?
i might consider.
its like once in a life tyme, and i'm not going becos da location sucks.
wad a thing.

Singapore idol tonite.
must catch it k.

prelim ish so near,
and im still here crapping lotsa stuff,
not even related to studies.
hmm,
-slap myself-
gotta wake up soon and juz mug a little.

went fer da youth guidence and tuition stuff,
tink quite good lor.
it does help a lil.

yea,
quite a long entry.
and i shall stop here.
rest,
bath,
dinner,
singapore idol,
homework!!!
//runs

sighs. i'm so confused.

Tuesday, August 24, 2004 10:14 PM

*back

okie. new skin.
juz got home from nite study.
today's remedial ish damn funni lor.
we was doing paper.
it was quite quiet at da start.

den suddenly dunnoe who start da thing and become so noisy.
all i can rmb was tish...
damien: eh, kahwah, i dare u lar. i treat u everyday fer food, u go dig cheng ze pi sai!
den blah blah blah.

in the end xiao zhu, dad and kahwah decided to dare helium
kahwah: helium, we dare u, we treat u lotsa food lar, u got tell jieying;
JIEYING! jin tian ni hen mei,[ jieying, u are so pretty today] si ge ke ai de monster [u are a veri cute monster], wo yao he ni zhou ai! [ i want to make love wif you]
helium: no nid food lar, drinks can liao
juz as helium start shouting, xiao zhu luff like crazy.
i cant even hear a thing, and i juz luff along wif xiao zhu.
his laughter was damn funny lor.
den i luff till i tears and stomach aches.

i swear tat we wasnt luffing at da joke they crack on jieying.
is xiao zhu's ass laughter lor. damn funni.
he oso luff till tearing and nearly fall on floor lor.
if u were dere, i'm sure u will luff like siao.
i cant express it well lar.
but its damn damn funni i tell u.
i'm luffing as i type dis dumb entry.
oh well,
its tyme to go.
gotta finish all da homework.
//runs

Sunday, August 22, 2004 8:00 PM

grrt.

juz cant get a blog skin i like.
wad ever it is.
tish stupid thing will stay like tish fer da week.
anything juz tell mi thru my old blog.
hate it.

guess u are not gonna call mi anymore :(

3:21 PM

done.

okays.
tis blog ish finalli done.
took mi 2 days to find a damn skin.
hmm.
went to study yest,
dat damn gary ish late.
xiaoling didnt turn up last min.
and both of us onli did one correction fer da whole day.
went home,
slack like shit.
chat fone wif ngiex darling till veri late,
den do homework.
den sleep till 10 in da morning.
slack da whole sunday.
gonna start work soon.

ngiex darling:
take care, dun tink too much lar. plish be happi :)

Saturday, August 21, 2004 2:29 PM

hi :)

still under construction.
sorry :)
be back veri soon.